Recompense

Been on my mind alot recently.

Rescue Me

Like I mentioned in my facebook status I updated about 5 seconds ago. I thought living alone in Lubbock was boring and lonely. Mom came home from work not feeling well. We ate dinner. Now she's napping in the couch, and I'm back to my darling Netflix. I'm working on my 7th hour of movies/documentaries for today. Possible shopping with Kendall on Wednesday. Thank god.

oh, and I need to find some New Years plans.

The Business of Being Born
Dear John
Now & Then
The Science of Sex Appeal
The Machinist?
Pollock?
The Way We Were?

who knows.....

Merry Christmas

Technically it's the 26th. I'm just up late

Priscilla died during Christmas dinner. I guess propriety and ettiquette went out the window when mom announced it to the whole table of us still eating. At least is wasn't seafood we were having. I had changed her water this morning (as her christmas gift, how thoughtful of me) and I guess this League City water was too much to handle. Weird, because I thought the water in Lubbock was sick, and somehow she survived on that for months. She had been with me since my birthday; coincidentally the same time frame as another person I know. Hopefully this isn't some sick forshadowing of events to come. I'd much rather lose my fish than my friend. Not that Priscilla wasn't my friend. Many mornings, my only reason to get out of bed was to stumble to her tank in the kitchen, still-drunk, still nude, and feed her. I am undecided whether or not I will replace her. Tough choice.

My Christmas gift is shopping. Nothing under the tree, but I'll have plenty to put in my closet by the time I head back to Lubbock. Good trade-off I'd say, I hate opening gifts infront of people.

Home for le Holidays

Unlike Thanksgiving break, it is nice to be able to lay around and do nothing all day. Over thanksgiving I had way too much schoolwark to still work on, hardly a holiday.
Got 3 A's and 1 B this semester though; I'm pretty pleased with that. One more semester and I'll be dunzo with this college thing. I don't want to think about life after graduation. It could be incredible or it could be hell-on-earth.
Pandora isn't botching my music stations too much today, it's quite nice.

Back To NY

Be excited.

In a few short months, I'll be returning to New York once again, and will have a blog worth reading, once again. This time around I will be joined by 2 wonderful friends of mine, Amanda and Kris, and possibly a few more. My list of things to do this time around is growing everyday, although many are repeats of things/places I LOVED last summer

- GO TO CENTRAL PARK (how lazy of me?)
more specifically, have a picnic.
- Blockheads tacos and guacamole
- Continental!!!!!!
- Crumbs Cupcakes
- Max Brenner
- The Whitney
- Guggenheim
- Eat in Little Italy (despite how expensive)
- not get fat this time. hahaha

words cant explain how excited i am

2010 is the year......

Lady Gaga
The Eagles
Ying Yang Twins
Ghostland Observatory

How's dis?

for a non-despressing post.

life if getting more and more like the front pages of TFLN.

Woke up on saturday with a plate of nachos on my night stand. checked my phone to find an email from AmazonMP3 saying "thank you for your purchase" Evidently I bought a Fergie song. oh jesus.

But good times have been had recently.

Halloween was wonderful.

Thursday: Barbie

Friday: Rainbow Fish

Saturday: Lady Gaga

I make mother so proud :)

Hmmpff

I don’t really know how I always get in this scenario, god knows its not the first time. That mess I said before about getting close to new and wonderful people? Well it sure feels short-lived. Not that they’re bad people now; they’re wonderful people, and I loved being around them. It’s just different now. I’ve been honest and true to myself. There’s not much else I could’ve done.

worst feeling ever

my anxiety is back.

yuck.

Feels nice.

I felt like a storm had been brewing for months too long, but I was just to weak and scared to stand up for myself. Realizing I was never going to gain anything, I realized I had nothing to lose either. I’m done dealing with people that don’t make me feel good about myself. I’m the personification of being fed-up, so I’m cutting the bullshit

I didn’t think I could be happy in these circumstances. But I’ve luckily met and/or gotten closer with some wonderful people, and am thoroughly enjoying it.

Losing the negative people, gaining the good.

ew.

I don't like things rights now.

Every part of my life is stressing me out and/or I'm just not happy with it.

6 months left in this little college bubble, and I'm getting frantic.

Some people aren't as anxt-ey as I am, (no need for everyone to freak out like I am, of course) but it makes me feel shitty in a way.

All I really wanna do is talk-it-out of my system, but who wants to talk these days?

I want to be there for you also ("you" being plural. Nicer sounding than "y'all")

I want to spend time with people I care about while I still can, but bullshit just gets in the way, and petty arguments and hurt feelings and resentment (and alcohol) rear their ugly heads.

Pretty soon we'll all just be Facebook profiles to one-another, and then what?

I wish I hadn't lost the friends that I have.

None of them are bad people, and I wish things could be different.

But I've been hurt by them, and as bitter as it sounds, I've wasted a lot of time caring about people who don't care about me.

To everyone else, with whom I am still friends, don't be a stranger.

I love you all.

Sorry for the lame post.

Birthday Weekend

Sure haven't posted anything since classes have started, so lets get that chat over with:

nothing special, nothing remotely too hard.

History

Care & Management of Companion Animals (puppies 'n' kitties)

Speech (discussion & lecture)

and Individual Study w/ Ms Haynie

The 3rd day of classes Steph and I both have presentations in Haynie's surface design class, Steph's about her summer trips to guatemala and columbia, and mine at Mara Hoffman.

Flash forward to this weekend and it was my 22nd birthday, Hooray!

fun was had by all, met my neighbors, hit the town, it was a good time :)

The next morning, i wasn't too cute. and felt even worse. but it was worth it.

Today is Shawndell's birthday, so Happy Birthday to her!

Oops?

So I realize that last blog was rather erratic and not very fun entertaining. sorry yall.

Anyways,

Classes start on Thursday, and I've already spent 2 afternoons too many chatting it up with Haynie in her office. It's nice to get back into the schooling frame of mind though. I thougth i was going to have to throw a hissy fit in the advisors office about getting overridden into a history class since 98% of them were closed (the 2% included Honors something else that only had 4 open spot to begin with) But I happened to lookat the classes again, and there was ONE open seat in the history class I wanted, with the teacher I had for the first one, so I snagged it. thank GOD. An advisor survives another day.

Anyone that hung out with me 2 weeks ago knows about my funked up tooth thanks to a douchebag apple. I though that when I bit into the fella that a piece of the apple-skin got stuck between my teef, and it annoyed me to no end, and BELIEVE me I let everyone know about it. I almost left a party early so I could go home and try flossing again. Now 2 weeks later the damage is showing itself in the form of my chipped retainer, one of those really sexy ones that are glued to the inside of your teef. First I could only feel the tiny tiny space between my tooth and the cement stuff, but my grilled cheese at Spanky's today chipped off a little nugget of it and I chomped down on the guy, ouch. So now there's a sharp little edge of the chipped cement I can stop playing with. Going to the Doc on Thursday to look like a dumbass in front of some 12-year olds that are getting braces put on, and I can't seem to keep my orthodontic act together.

Saturday night was a doozy. Certainly didn't end how I planned. Looking back at my bar tab for the night, trust me, my $14 did not cause that much damage. Hurricane Paco is the culprit, Megan will testify. I could write paragraph after paragraph of all the stupid shit I did, but thats not cute, I'm certainly not proud of it. I never like getting the text from Steph saying "I've never seen you that fucked up!" But I do remember a girl in the bathroom applauding my correct use of "whom" despite my mental state. My only damage control: Jared, I'm sorry. I was actin' a fool. :-/

Ms. Haynie wants me to come speak to her class on Monday about my internship over the summer. I was real excited till I realized I was the enemy!!! She's notorious for keeping the class for the full scheduled class time on the first day of classes. BAHH a whole three hours, I've sat through that mess. But I'm giving my schpeel after she goes over the syllabus with the class, when everyone is really antsy to leave. To those of you who are in her 4:00 Surface Design class, I'm gonna try to make it interesting, funny, and short.

While looking through pics to use for my presentation/schpeel thing, I found some New York pics I never posted, so here's some exciting fun:

The view on a pretty day!

Living room

My room. My bed = zebra suitcase

The root of all evil. damn bathroom.

Union Square

;-)

Laura's cheese tots :((((( SICK --love ya laura.

Pi on my m&m

Pauleen's DRINK at Max Brenner. wtf

My dessert at Max Brenner :)

date night fail: blog post from bed. Happy Friday.

Had a lady-date with Megan tonight. was definitely supposed to be a group thing, but no one could make it, so it became just us two. and oh boy did we have the itinerary set. we were lookin fab, I had on my newest-most-flyest shoes (their first night out on the town) its seemed so fool-proof. but never underestimate the power of stupid people.

Dinner at La Diosa, can't mess that up. it was delicious. And then we met up with Kassie and Dusty at Melt, two date nights merged into one. Saw a guy wearing a skirt and moses sandals. Megan and I moved on to BarPM, and then things things turned sour.

"Mind if we sit here?" -- words I dread hearing.

after getting oogled by some TAPOUT fan and just a regular ol' staring creep for a few minutes, Brian #1 and Brian #2 graced us with their best-attempts. everything awkward, they did. bad-mouthed the football team, asked for fashion tips?? get real. and all this obliterated our minimally structured itinerary.

last stop on the agenda was planned to be Cafe J. But thanks to the fools at PM talking so much, and my decent manners that prevented us from just up and leaving, we didn't pull into the parking lot till 1:45. damn, there was no getting in there 15 minutes from closing, so we just left. boo.

and here i am. laying in bed, laptop on belly.

And it doesnt help that my class schedule has been blown to smithereens. I have to choose a different history, and different individual study teacher cuz evidently mine wont be teaching her next year, and she never felt like notifying me. WTF. thought i had my act together, but luckily i cant do any of it till monday, so i can chill out for 2 days here.

PS. I love my apartment.

PS PS. I love this bed, I'll never leave.

So Soon

Heading back to Lubbock on Friday, and am VERY excited! Aside from the stress of moving it will be a very fun time.

Friday: Driving up

Saturday: Moving out & moving in

Sunday: Find/buy anything i need and don't have

Monday: Fun day with Mom

Tuesday: Mom heads home Megs hits the streets :)

get ready y'all.

Im fuckin' pumped.

Sorry

...For not posting much at all these past weeks. All ive been doing is sitting around; not doing a thing. Last week I was enjoying my life of nothing, recovering and catching up on sleep.

The weekend was cool to say the least, Lunch at P.F. Chang's with mom and sis, and then LADY GAGA with mom on sunday!!!!!!!!!

Oh. My. God. is was awesome.

words cant explain.

if you get the chance, you just better go

This weekend/week = just planning an preparing for the move-in on the 7th. eeeek what a stressful day that will be, but Megs will be back in Lubbock!

Funny.

Home Again.

Well the summer in New York has come to an end.

I've now been home for 2 days, and am back to getting the psychological bed sores and laying around the house all day.

My intership took a spectacular turn in the last 2 weeks, and I was given the chance to really do alot of good work for Mara and the girls. I couldn't be more proud of myself for rising to the occasion. I was given some incredible opportunities that led to having a garment I constructed walk at Mercedes-Benz Fashion Week. Unless you've been under a rock the past 5 days, (or are just new to my blog) you know this already. When my plane landed back in Houston and turned on my phone, my phone lit up with a message from Dom saying my garment was walking as the finale piece, and I instantly shit the floor. (metaphorically, obviously)

After posting the photo on facebook, the support I have receieved has been astounding, and is certainly keeping my momentum going. I hate to sound like a washed-up country-oinger acceptance speech, but I feel so so so blessed for this experience.

Mara, Dom, Denise, Dana, and Danika I will never be able to thank you enough for e v e r y t h i n g.

Rewinding a few hours, My last night in NY was rather uneventful, aside from a fabulous dinner at Max Brenner. I had been dreaming on this restaurant visit since day 1, and it finally happened. spinach and artichoke dip is always a default have-to if its on the menu, and for my meal i had mac'n'cheese. (no surprise there) My much-awaited dessert was Tempura Banana Fondue. YUM. My pictures are floating around somewhere on my Mac, which I dont have internet on at home, so it may be a few days till I find them and post them. From there we had a few drink at Bar None for the last time, and headed home to finish tipsily packing.

Woke up early, said some goodbyes, got coffee with Pauleen, a few more goodbyes, and it was off to LaGuardia and to Houston.

Although home is pretty boring, Im so happy to be back with my mom, and ready for LADY GAGA this weekend!!!!!!!!

Last Weekend :(

The last full wekened in NYC :(

Friday night we had our Dinner Dance Cruise on the Hudson. Gorgeous!!!!!! I love any chance to get dressed up, eat tasty food, and spend time with friends

The next day, I went on the Sex and the City Tour, how exciting! I wish we stopped more places, but i was nice to go around the city, see different things, and NOT have to walk for a change. Cosmos!

The next day i was dead set on going to central park, which thanks to the rain, never happened. but we walked around, last minute shopping, were gonna go to the Top of the Rock, but didn't feel like spending the money,

Here's to the last week on the job, last week of the city, and last week of my friends :(

My Bad

I totally forgot to post after last weekend.

I guess I feel worse because now my stories, etc aren't as vivid.

Soooooo Arielle went out of town again, and after I quit crying in my bed and eating ice cream, Pauleen, Laura, and I went back to the Penny Farthing, and had ourselves a wonderful meal, again! (I love that place) Laura then went home to fall asleep (real cute) so Pauleen and I hit the town and celebrated Fishbowl Friday at BarNone.

Saturday we headed to the Museum of Natural History. It was cooooooooool. Alot of stuffed animals, but super fun.

From there we took the subway down, WAY down to the Village and did some shopping and exploring and finally, eating. We ate at B Bar & Grill, It was really pretty and I SWEAR it was on Sex & The City, but I could be wrong. Food was really fun, and I had Banana Fritters for desert. I love a good fritter.

That night, of course we went out and actually tried some new places, the first one was a FLOP. $5 cover? and then when we asked if they took credit, we got a smartass response (welcome to NewYork) HELLO pals from TX, everywhere I've been I've been able to pay cover with a card. how annoying, nyc.

From there we went to the next stop on the itinerary, Revel. I've come to learn that the West Village is real gay. Literally. Which of course isn't a bad thing, until you get acquainted with New York Gays. catty, rude prima-donnas. This place was filled with em. Though it was a real classy joint, the drink prices were even "classier" Boooooo.

En route to the next place, walking down the side walk, some fool on a bike ride past me and spanks my ass, and ride off.

Dats Cute.

I was furious, and the night was dunzo!

FOURTH OF JULY!

Woke up and got dressed real patriotic-like, and decided to have a low-key daw of local sight-seeing with ma girl Pauly V. (Pauleen) I live across the street from Union Square, but never stopped to enjoy it, and also frequent the Washington Square Park area. So I finally decided to go and take some photos, and grab another Crumbs cupcake on the walk between the two. It was a VERY hot, but very enjoyable afternoon.

Got home and changed clothes REAL quick, and headed out to eat dinner before the fireworks!

Dinner was at the Brass Monkey in the Meatpacking District, right off the water. Another wonderful grilled cheese and Sex-on-the-Beach :) They are also the proud employers of THE hottest bartender I have ever seen in my life. Yes sir. and to make the night perfect, he was talking to an absolute scrub the whole time.

Firework time!

Headed out to Pier 54 and bum-rushed thru the police baracades with a few hundred other people, and saw a fabulous show

Back to the monkey for more drinks till about 3:00, then took the L back to Union Square and the Dorm.

Monday I slept late, and literally chilled in my room and it was incredibly enjoyable to have a day off.

This weekend looks promising, my last one in NYC. I'm buying a bigger memory card for my camera tomorrow (I'm still using a 256 MB one form 6 years ago; thats about 120 pictures and its FULL. embarrassing) Tomorrow night the Dinner Dance Cruise on the Hudson, I'm very excited for it. Then my last week of work :( thats terribly sad, I'm not gonna go there yet.

I'll update after this weekend for sure. I promise.

Its time we Met :)

Soooooo this week we by kinda slow at first, but certainly picked up toward the end. Arielle went out of town on friday :(

Somehow Pauleen and I actually had energy to go out on Friday. (this rarely happens) we had dinner at the Old Town Bar (what a creative name) and then got dressed and headed out. Our original plans fell thru but we decided to salvage the night with a Fishbowl at BarNone . Turns out, half a fishbowl is ALL you need. we were trashed, and it was wonderful. a good ending to a potentially shitty night. she has some adorable pics, but she never uploads hers. jerk.

the next morning-- well afternoon, I woke up feeling fine (surprisingly) and Pauleen and I headed to the Metropolitan Museum Of Art. just gorgeous things everywhere, I loved it. Once again, its just breathtaking to be surrounded by things Ive been studying my whole life.

hey.

then we had some dindin at an alright place on the upper east side. just some pizza. but they gave free bread, so i was a happy camper.

after some other plans, we met up with our friend Laura and had drink with her dad, and went to an apartment party (funsies) and then, just to keep the fun rolling, back to Bar None, but no fishbowls this time. just drinks and drinks and drinks and bed.

Today had a chill day and just did some shopping, then Arielle got back and we all went back to blockheads for some fab mexican food.

I can't believe how soon I'll be headed home!

This week:

The Whitney?

The Guggenheim?

Fondue?

Central Park?

Aquarium?

Museum of Natural History?

suggestionsssss!!!!!

well dats kyuooot

Had the Washington DC trip this weekend. not too terrible of a bus ride, 2 movies' length. got there and saw every monument/memorial possible. so so beautiful. i have like 50 pics up on face book, and gonna be lazy and only post a few.

gorge :)

AND i had the best King Crab legs ever at Tony & Joe's. But for a hefty price :(

Today we went to the Museum of National History, whihc was also very very cool, but those pics are kinda boring .

anyhoo, sorry for such a weeeeeeeee teeny post, but I'm a tired little girl.

get yourself an education. watch this awesomeness.

Half Full? Half Empty?

Week 4 has begun. Very soon i'll reach the official halfway point. CRAZYYYY

Soooooo the Yankees game was pretty cool, and i stayed a lot longer than i thought. Took a luscious nap afterwards tho. Footlong hotdog and a bag of M&Ms for $16? alright....... i guess. the hotdog was pretty divine tho. Ive never found a foot-long i didn't like. (toooooo good of a joke. i insult myself for a good laugh.)

After my previously-mentioned luscious nap, we got ourselves looking fabulous and headed uptown to Blockheads to get some cheap thrills -- er, margaritas. The tacos very delish, and i had a watermelon marg and a coconut one as well. life was good.

Pauleen and i went to follow Karli to a party in little Italy, which turned out BALLIN.

Rooftop?

check.

View of the Empire State Building?

check.

Sweet apartment?

check.

DJ?

check.

Booze?

check.

Ipad?

touched it.

check.

VIP?

check. but turns out it was an empty closet....

regardless, its was wicked fun (my Boston is showing. Thanks Arielle)

Now its back to the workweek. Working on my designs, hoping one will tickle Mara's pickle. Next weekend we're going on a trip to Washington DC, so hooooray! back to doing tourist things. it'll feel good. a 4-hour bus ride with 200 college kids. great.

Pre-Weekend #3

Well it was my first full 5 days of work and it honestly flew by like no other. Now that there aren't as many errands, my feet can return to normal state of disrepair, and not swollen, sore, and covered in city grime. Also in the less hectic work enviro, there had been time for sketching and designing, which I have been delighted to partake in. Finally, designated time for such a craft.

hmmmmmm what happened this week......

Tuesday we went to Serendipity for their famous frozen hot chocolate. Pauleen and I split one and a piece of cheesecake, which was the best I've ever had. So fluffy, but so creamy and heavy at the same time. Perf. They also had giant menus. Cool.

Thursday night, Arielle and I had a Champagne and Strawberries laundry date. it was quite romantic, and really rekindled the flame in our relationship.

And finally, to celebrate friday-funday, Arielle, Pauleen & I walked around for an hour trying to find a suitable restaurant and finally discovered Piola, a super-presh, World Cup crazed pizza place just a mere 2 blocks from the dorm. We had delicious bruschetta and some pizza before retiring to our rooms.

Going out on Fridays is too too draining, and hardly enjoyable. Tomorrow we're headed to the Yankees game, and they happen to be playing the Astros (Holla!) so I thought that was a cool coincidence. I'll probably leave early though, baseball was never my game of choice, but I'll certainly go for some of it. Afterwards, I may try another museum, or maybe some central park public napping in the sun. Ballin'.